Expectations

*******Newsflash*******

I am not Jesus H. Christ, I know right, stop the press. What I mean by that is that I’m not infallible, I’m not above criticism, and to some, I’m not a good person. But it is in my belief, in knowing myself, that the things I pride myself most on are honesty, decency, and being there for those that need it.

Even before pursuing journalism, I always had a fascination with the truth. The search for, and the protection of it. Honesty and clarity are what I value most in a person. Even more than honesty, and I value decency highly. Having the character operate in exactly the same way regardless of environment or company, having the character to stand up for what you think is right or calling out what you think is wrong. Decency isn’t a synonym for political or social values for me. I believe the majority of people are either center, center-left, or center-right. That the vocal 15-20% minority on both ends of the spectrum are what drive the narratives, those that get the political balls rolling. And while I may distrust the far-left as much as I loath the lack of decency from the far-right. I ultimately hold both on level terms. One may have much more extreme views but in a point of ambiguity, I’ll let you the reader decide which one is the extreme one.

Long paragraph short, as long as you’re honest and not a cunt, you’ll have a page saved in my good book.

The last one is more personal. Before college I didn’t operate in the role of helper, I generally didn’t like helping others. But with the result of a few events that have transpired (some of which I laid out in the white and black of this blog), I find myself actively pushing myself to help others, at an almost subconscious level now. Because I believe that the tiniest gesture can alter a person’s life. One sentence, one act, one random display of kindness. So the idea that in the process of helping others I could’ve potentially made someone’s hour or day or week, month or year, makes it all worth it.

I know I mentioned the C man already but believe me I’m not religious, probably agnostic. But anyway, the phrase “do onto others as you would have them done onto you” really sticks out. Not that I do it so I can get a favor or some sort of help in return. But I believe that small acts really go a long way. And leading by example in being a helping hand is such an enriching experience knowing that the only outcome is joy.

So why am I mentioning this, well in case you weren’t aware there’s a global pandemic going on. (hopefully not much longer thx BioNTech) And with such a global disaster, changes and compromises need to be made to our world. People are losing jobs left right and center, people being evicted, not seeing loved ones for months, and most importantly, almost 1.3 million people are fucking dead.

SO, with all that going on, the last, and I mean the LAST group that I want to hear complaints about this is fucking students. My people, I’m a uni student and I fucking lose my mind anytime someone speaks out about how hard being a student is. Now to clarify, I am not saying because X is a student, X doesn’t have a right to complain about anything. I believe that everyone has a right and a voice in this little thing we call democracy. Buuuuut what I can’t stand is complaints that are entirely centered around college.

We as a student body is entirely made up of some of the most privileged people on the face of the earth. I hate to bring up the P-word. But I bring it up, not as a means to say I want to silence you, but rather a means of putting the problems of 19-26-year-olds (whether they’re dependent on their family or not) in line with peoples lives who are actively falling apart, while are bunch’s biggest problem seems to be what country we’re going to visit for 6 months,

Let me elaborate further, in case I’m being too blunt( which I expect I am), a lot of the problems I hear time and time again from students are some of the most mundane, braindead, and crocodile shit you’ll ever hear. ” We’re being targeted unfairly for breaking rules in the pandemic” Well other than admitting you’re breaking guidelines that activity puts the mortality of others at risk, let’s see if that has any merit. If you look at the spectrum of groups that broke guidelines. Students were criticized, sure, but that’s it. Others who break guidelines lose their fucking job. Golfgate cost some of the most high ranking officials, not just in the state but in the European Union, their job. Students got a slap on the wrist, and at most, if they were really fucking retarded and broke it on numerous occasions, then actions would take place.

This is a lack of decency, putting your enjoyment over the health of others.

Also, I don’t want to get into every complaint these dipshits seem to have about quarantine. But it’s generally either uninformed takes, lacking in total decency for others, or just a plain lack in honesty.

Like all these problems are the University’s fault, like have some fucking empathy. As if they asked for a global pandemic that puts them and the tens of thousands of students they look after into a health crisis. It just all seems so entitled. They(i mean the uni, the lectures, and tutors) are doing the best they can at adapting as much as we are. The amount of ungratefulness from students is actually unreal, such a snobby and cunty bunch of people, the second something doesn’t go their way. Go to UL confessions and you’ll find no shortage of complaints and bitching and moaning about this, that, and all types of absolute and complete nonsense. I almost clapped out loud, when someone responded to someone saying “they’re a week behind in the course, how am I to manage” and the response was “Maybe you wouldn’t be behind if you didn’t procrastinate” CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP to you good sir or madam(i know I’m talking like I’m from the 1800s but stay with me here).

This and the complaints about work schedules and the quantity of work. I’m privy to outside my course knowledge to know that most courses are complaining about workloads. But from what I know, meaning I know what my other classmates know, is that comparing the quantity of this semester’s work with last semester, we’re doing less writing, have fewer assignments, and have less work & classes in general. We all also have the built-up hours upon hours that we lose from the commute every day.

SO RIDDLE ME FUCKING THIS, how with more time and less work to people have the urge to complain. Well, the answer to that conundrum is beyond my universal intellect(lol).

The truth is people just like complaining, I’m guilty, I’m doing it right now. That is of course before I mention a certain GC. GOD this fucking GC. If I could bundle all the unattractive qualities that people without decency lack, it’s in this GC in flying fucking colours. I don’t dare even speak this GC’s name. It’s a pit of dishonesty, a void of moral character, of entrenched cowardly backstabbing. A circle that leaches of one another, but picks and chooses who to leach from. I’m glad I left it, I hope never to return. It makes people into what I despise most.

I’d rather be in GC with honest fascists and commies than to spend time in a GC with dishonest cowards.

My Expectations of people as I’ve already said are quite low, be honest, and have a shred of decency and we’ll be fine. FOR example, a few months ago I attended a group of friends who I hadn’t seen in ages and was overjoyed to see them again. I’d felt bad for not inviting a certain friend but I didn’t want to drag them along because of a few reasons. Near the end of the day with them, the conversation turned into a hate-filled circle jerk about this friend I hadn’t invited. TRUST me, it takes a lot to leave me angrily speechless, and oh was I at that moment, I let the moment pass, digested all the points they all brought up and after we all left, I immediately pored over this again and again and again and again. Because of these acts by those who I considered friends, these acts were absolute friendship breakers. No doubt in my mind. I confronted them all about it and they accepted that what they had done was wrong and they felt bad about it. Let it not go overlooked that I was ready and willing to cut ties with this whole group of friends, given they doubled down. Doubling down means a knowing attempt at a disregard of being an Honest and Decent human being. I’ll put up with a lot in people, especially friends, but breaking one does immeasurable damage in my eyes. Breaking both is the last straw, being unapologetic is a total and irreversible dealbreaker. Because to have any sort of decency you need to be honest with yourself, and if I lied to myself in this situation to maintain friendships then I’d be nothing more than a spineless slippery snake of a human being that is willing to break every single principle that I hold over maintaining a few friendships.

That is what the GC is yet to learn, which is why I’ll never return. I make it out as they want me back, most probably fucking hate me. But readers, my ship has sailed on that GC long ago, a cargo ship carrying 100% pure and crystal Columbian hatred.

I haven’t posted as much as I should have, I scraped a few posts because I didn’t feel they cleared the bar for this blog( a bar which is extremely low) I hope to post more often this winter.

Stay safe, don’t be a gowl, spread the faith.

Seán

PS- Think i’ll start to link new songs that i enjoy,

Peak this

Slan 😉