To be honest, for a long time I’ve thought about documenting my life,i didn’t see that materializing in a blog but i used this project as a vehicle to pursue something that i wanted to do, there’s the odd text document on my laptop from last september-october, that are more or less the same thing as what this blog has turned out to be,a weekly slot where i reflect on each week and weigh up what i should focus more on and what I’ve gained and felt over the past 168 hours.
I bring this up because one thing I’ve noticed over the past couple days is that all the blogs i’m subscribed to have posted “Their final post” so to speak. A send off, a thanks,a good luck of some kind, it’s made me…….not sad but poignant(and that might not even be the right word), it’s not like i’m completely shut off from these people now they’ve ended their blog,most of the blogs i follow,i already know most of the events they bring up because they’ve brought up between messages. So i feel like something that i’ve looked forward to every week is now finished but i’m the last one posting. Not for any marks but for myself,for my own satisfaction. I guess this blog filled the hole that the therapy class from the access group created.
Those sessions with Judy Moloney were so mentally refreshing,where i and a few others were asked to reflect on ourselves and given the time and comfort to really open up. I’ve disclosed information about myself(information that i wouldn’t tell my closest friends,my siblings or my parents) but i told it to this complete stranger. Judy was absolutely wonderful. So in some ubsured way,this blog fills that space, but instead of Judy,it’s the endless void of the internet for anyone to stumble across.
I’m not 100% transparent,there are a few things that (because i know people personally who read this) i’m reluctant to disclose pieces of information or reveal some thoughts I’ve had over the week that are too personal, that if disclosed might unsettle some friendships.
One thing that happened today in fact,early this morning, which was me and my friend mark(reilly) were discussing his future prospects. I genuinely feel that Mark has the highest potential out of all of us. That it wouldn’t take that much practice and development to be the next big thing,in whatever he ends up pursuing. I see so much potential in him,that’s part of the reason i’m so eager to help him because i know he’s got a real chance,if i can help him and work with him for the next few years, hopefully he can make everyone see the ability that i see in him. We’ve got a lot of good eggs in our group,some talented gowls, a few i envisage having great careers but i genuinely feel mark has got the best shot,i just hope he realizes how naturally talented he actually is.
Since last week i’ve watched:
- Steamboat Willie(1928) – Good to see where our media overlords started 3/5
- Fifty Shades of Gray(2015) – This was so boring,here’s my review of it because i’m not going on a rant again 1/5 https://letterboxd.com/piss_wizard/film/fifty-shades-of-grey/
- Training Day(2001) – Damn,this was some good shit 4/5
- The Florida Project(2017) – Willem Defoe was so heartwarming and kind in this, that he changed his name to Willem Defriend 4.5/5
- Every Chappelle Netflix Special – Chappelle is untouchable, no living comedian comes close to him.
- Hip Hop Evolution – Finished Season 1 of this doc, it’s so well put together and researched. An entertaining history lesson 5/5
Oh ya and football is back,the quality of the games are terrible but it’s better than 2 months of nothing.
I’m the last blog standing, whether that’s a good thing or i’m just sad is entirety up to you.
Mind Yourself, ye absolute zealous turkeys.
Seán
This blog isn't about fashion,sorry. 